Reconnecting with the Past

    The time spent with Julia has helped Winston reconnect with his desire for rebellion and his past memories, both of which have been repressed by the Party. Julia and Winston began renting a room above Mr. Charrington’s shop to carry on their affair and consider the possibility of changing their identities to escape the Party together. However Julia's disinterest quickly shuts down Winston's fantasy. Along with the optimistic expectations, recent events also brought about distant and upsetting memories from Winston's childhood and his family. These feelings, that have been inhibited for years by the Party, are emerging because Winston now has his relationship with Julia as an emotional and physical outlet. He realizes that since the Party has taken control of all human history and feelings, the only true history remaining only exists in his subconscious:"The only evidence is inside my own mind, and I don't know with any certainty that any other human being shares my memories"(2.5).